PART-3, My Teenage!!

PART-3

TEENAGER

Bird is ready to fly higher and higher!

It’s the phase in which influence makes a difference in each and every one’s life likewise “a contour is given to a pot by a porter”.

When I entered in my teenage, the feelings changed according to the time as of my growing age.

It was the time when I couldn’t share my feeling with anyone due to my introvert nature. The introvert nature was due to the boundation’s I had at that time.

I still remember my dad’s words “my dear daughter this is the age where you will feel like making friends, try to know people around you but don’t get distracted from your studies . study well and pass out from school with good marks then you can enjoy your life to the fullest , when I passed out my 12^th I told dad ,dad can I go with friends to party out ,go for movies etc… dad said beta focus on your graduation score good marks for better opportunities of job as the competition is too tough. I told dad ok ….i know my dad said all these things for my betterment but I use to feel so bounded and frustrated . Now I can proudly say yes, my dad was completely right…”

Teenager life is too complicated.

When I was in my teenage, I was very confused. Thinking only about studies and exams was no more the only aim. Always had the feeling that I should be ahead of everyone in every field.

I was too aggressive. I still remember few incidence of my life-

Ø  When I was in my school, my younger sister use to study with me in same school, after school got over we both use to board the bus while coming back home. My sister was sitting near window seat and was waiting for me to come. In meanwhile one of her classmate (Surbhi) sat next to her and she started argue with my sis for window seat and Surbhi’s elder sister who was head girl of our school came and threw my sister’s bag outside the window . I saw my sister crying and I asked her what happened .She told me the whole thing and I couldn’t control my anger I holded the head girl’s neck so tightly that she couldn’t breathe properly and her throught got choked .Loll my teachers who were there in the bus came and made me leave her neck. And next day she came to my place and told my dad .then what my dad first made her say sorry to me and then I apologized to her. But that day I realize I was an aggressive girl.

Ø  When I was in my 8^th standard I had conflict with one of my class mate. Till 8^th I was the most shy and calm girl who couldn’t speak to guys properly , very shy in asking question to teachers as I was very insecured what people will think if I l ask question to my teachers. I was very introvert due to which I never had friend circle. I had hardly 1-2 friends. But one day one of my friend provoke me that I don’t have guts to reply back people when they talk bad about me or tease me. I got really hyper and out of blue don’t know how come I went to the girl with whom I had grudges ,she was drinking water near water cooler ,without realizing I slapped her and later my vice principle scolded me L . But that’s how teenager phase is, we easily get influenced ….

In teenage, we have different relation with different people .Let’s talk about

PARENTS (Age Gap Creates Differences.)

Well I respect my parents the most and I have always listen to what they have told me. There has been many moments when I use to get frustrated and felt bad due to the restriction they created at that time. But today when I think about those moments I feel even they were right at their place.

Parents are very much attached to their children and boundations or restrictions are the part of their care and love.

I had friends who always complaint about their parents that they are narrow minded , they are very strict etc.. but in teenager phase I believe if parents become strict its for our betterment only.

Today I  truly admire my parents and I am greatful to god that he has given me the best parents who love me so much and are so understanding because they have loved me the way I am, good or bad , they never tried to changed me but always inspired me to live my life.

FRIENDS (good friend leads to the positive path whereas wrong company can spoil precious life.)

When I was 16 years old I had  good friend circle (isha,subhu,hanish) with whom I can share my talks , study together , go for coaching classes etc….  we all met in tution classes and till today we all are in contact and still good friends. Good company of friends can take us on right path whereas bad company can spoil our life.

It’s a true saying “OLD IS GOLD”!! I am really lucky to have such friends who have been with me in every situation.

SCHOOL EXPERIENCE (BEAUTIFUL MOMENTS OF LIFE)

School time is the time where we develop our thinking, get to know about our strengths, we discover our hidden talent.

Till 8^th I was too dumb. Very shy, scared of talking to teachers, classmates due to the fear that I am not like them.

I never realized that even I can be like them but I should be happy the way I am. In 9^th standard when few friends made me understand that even I have talent in me, I can be fluent in English , even I can speak like them , I can groom my skills , from that day I promised myself I will learn more and more… I will add few things in me which can make me a better human being. I was shy, introvert due to which I suffered alot, people use to take me lightly , make fun of me, try to take advantage of my innocence. When I realized, this world is really not the way I think so I became blunt and bold girl. After that if guys use to talk crap I use to revert back and show what I am. I overcame from my fear. Due to this my friend circle became huge and people started accepting me.

" Never compare yourself with others because it's like you insult yourself."
Author Unknown --- Submitted by Himadry N., Age 15 --- India

PART -2

Late Childhood

                                  

This phase of life for any child is very crucial and important. So even for me it was new and different. when i was 11 years old i was no more in play school where poems were the most interesting part , playing on

see - saw and toys was the happiest moments.

In this phase i was more towards studies , getting good marks, participating in activities to prove my talent and skills. Making peer group was like give competition to the another group of same class. To be teacher's favourite student was to be sincere with home work and buttering them.

 

School Life!!!!!!!

Well i use to enjoy my school days allot! But obviously i wasn't good in every subject .So the subject i never liked was Science . There were many reasons behind not liking the subject.
I nva understood the logic . I mean things which i hvnt experienced nor seen how can i believe it. I was kind of weired when i was in my late childhood (6-12)...

I always use to be in ambiguity . Once i asked my teacher about the questions i use to have in my mind :
y cant we make oxygen?
i mean when we say C + O2 = CO2                                             
carbon + oxygen = carbon dioxide
so why cant we make O2 ? (Oxygen)
mam asked : You only tell how is it possible ?
So i told her Mam according to me from CO2 if we take out carbon then O2 will be left so its so simple to make O2...(Oxygen)


I know you must be laughing what an insane answer .What next?  My Teacher never liked me after that and when ever i raised my hand she always avoided me. Many a times teachers use to punish me , scold me not because i was doing anything wrong but because my friends who use to sit next to me or use to sit behing me ,they use to make noise. I have observed , it hapens alot with me when i dont do mistake still i have been punished but why ?I still dont have answer of it. .........


I was happy with my life , with all the stupid questions i use to have in my mind at that point of time.

Today when i sit alone i laugh on those moment which i didn't realise at that point of time , may be that time i use to think about tuition's, homework , exams .There were many moments when i use to make excuses because i didn't wanted to give class test , viva etc... At that time for me the most frustrating moment was , when teachers use to scold me or not scoring good marks in test .


 As of now i fell that was nothing when i look into the problems or question about future or life .I m still thinking and searching the answers.


When we be in present we dnt like the situations of that particular phase of life but when we have passed through the phase and come into more critical and tough period life then we think about the past and analyse it and then we feel how good that time was which we always had complaints.

When i m having ambiguity about my future , my life, my aim . I am thinking about the time i have already lived and now i cant go back !!


Wish i could have made that phase of life more better. Why we wish about the things when its already gone why we dont do at the present moment of life.


I am still confused , If i could really go back to the past and change the mistakes things would have been better or worst? or what i am happy or unhappy is it because of past?


That little girl is still in me, Still keep asking stupid questions to her friends, family , relative...!!

A little Girl In Me!!

PART -1

 There are many thoughts going inside my mind. There are my questions on my mind , i am starting my journey to get the answer regarding  many thoughts, i come across every day! I want to share , What i feel ,  observe ,  perception , I want to express.

A Real Life Story Of A Girl !       

A little girl inside me ,Well i have always heard that you born for a reason and you accomplish the task and then die one day.Since the day we come into the world we really don't know what the task is?

 Here i want to tell you something very important which we all know but never realise due to our hectic life.
        

                      25 Years back the perception of people was to kill the girl child and prefer boy child specially in villages. Nobody knew when i was about to born what i will be "a girl or a boy".I myself didn't knew!! My granny must have expected a boy baby,My mom and dad were happy with whatever god will gift them . Finally i was born a little girl baby ,don't know whether my granny was happy with my existence or not.But my dad was against killing girl child. 

           Thank you dad ,due to him only today i am writing this blog. He decide to leave the village and move to Delhi for better future of his family. When i was born i was a baby who didn't knew anything about the world, society, environment ,culture, caste, politics, religions , good or bad, right or wrong, god or devil etc.... I was in a protective world of my parents.So its a story about a girl born in a village and brought up in Delhi. 

Journey Of An Infant!

             A kid with a pure soul and innocence. When i was too small  my parents were the supporter who was always there to look after me. They made me eat, sleep ,wake me up.sacrificing there sleep due to me. Totally dependent on parents. But when i grew up i start to eat by myself,try to walk ,speak , smile without knowing the reason.

Early Childhood

        When i turned up 3 year old , a new stage of life was waiting for me. Any Guess?? Obviously school life was about to start. My mom wanted me to be a doctor, dad wanted me to be a teacher, granny wanted me to b a cook etc.. But what i wanted to be , i still don't know.

         Today when i see my parents playing with small babies i imagine my childhood .When we were kids we really didn't know the love our parents doing is actually called love, dad coming from work completely tensed ,stressed out still manage to play with me and he getting a smile on his face must have been his beautiful moments.

     WOW!! Wish i could go back to my childhood and sleep on my mom's lap peacefully , playing with dad ,getting all attention and concern of family. How beautiful my childhood have been.
 that what i was a Little girl with no plan about life. no tension about future. living in present.

I miss that little girl which is still inside me!!!!!!!!!

On the road from the City of Skepticism, I had to pass through the Valley of Ambiguity.